Hm…a month since I wrote intending to write more often…well, let’s see how frequently I do so now.
I find myself at a compelling moment in my life. On December 3rd I’ll celebrate the 15th anniversary of my “Second Birth” awakening, and in fact I’m already into the anniversary time of the amazing sequence of shifts that led up to it. Really that whole time of extraordinary, so-unexpectable openings continued on through mid-January 1993 when, at some point, I had the stunning dream in which a giant (15-foot long) Siberian Tiger claimed me as its “totem human.”
Around that same time, January 14th 2008, is the 10th anniversary of our publication of my first truly-intended-for-the-public book, “Waking Down: Beyond Hypermasculine Dharmas–A Breakthrough Way of Self-Realization in the Sanctuary of Mutuality.” Linda and I and our close friends/colleagues at the time assumed the spiritual world was just ready and waiting for us, and that all it would take is a good book to get everyone properly notified. I didn’t even try to make it easily introductory; I assumed the grizzled and well-informed enlightenment-seeking crowd was just waiting for the word that it’s ok to BE Here! Silly us…we printed 5500 copies. Recently, when Linda and I moved to Sonoma, I counted boxes; we still have maybe just under a thousand. Back in the day I thought that thing would sell out in no time, 2-3 years tops. Of course we never have done much “marketing.” But even so…
Well, in these blog entries during this time I guess I’ll try to take stock, more or less publicly (I don’t know who reads this stuff, we’ll announce that there are entries in upcoming e-mailings) of the meaning and impact for me of these anniversaries. And where I feel I am in my life and work, and where I feel I’m heading, Linda and me both. And the work itself, our own and the whole Waking Down in Mutuality community and network.
The book anniversary is a poignant reflection, or makes for one; it’s not all that significant in itself. In contrast, my 15th birthday of Awakening seems to me a fairly big deal. I hope people who are grateful for my presence in the world and in their lives will want to make something of it, not just let it slide by. One of the disappointments, to me, of what is in so many ways a marvelous, vigorous new democracy of awakening and awakened men and women, is that people don’t yet seem to appreciate the nature, meaning, and power of Heart-transmission. They’re very good at grabbing hold of their own awakened lives and finding out how they can grow and where they’re moved to go, due so much to what this kind of transmission has made possible for them. But they’re not so good, by my standards and reckoning, at turning around and making sure to keep priming the pump. That seems to go against the grain of everyone’s own empowerment. I feel a more mature recognition won’t see it that way.
Let me go on record to say that December 3, 2007, is going to be a good day to keep me feeling extremely appreciated, honored, and thanked, and to prime the pump of my White-Hot Heart-Transmission to your own heart’s content. If this whole discussion goes right past you, or leaves you anxious that I’m getting grandiose or blah-blah-blah, that’s a good sign that you’re probably not one of the people I’m actively addressing. And that’s ok. But I do need to address those people and welcome them, you perhaps, to make much of what has been possible for the last nearly 15 years that, to the view of many of us, the events in my life of fall 1992 and the early weeks of 1993 ushered in as never occurred before in human history.